I was too busy the other day complaining that my webhost changed servers without first informing me, and how they had quietly restored my “missing” posts and comments that I forgot that it was my blogging anniversary.

It’s NOT that I have any achievements to shout about. In fact, I am not sure if there’s anything I should be proud of since I started blogging last year, well, except for getting myself a domain and hosting my blog myself. Is this even considered an achievement? Maybe, because it was quite a big step though I am sure I wasn’t in my right mind what I paid for the webhosting package *grins*

I wouldn’t say I’ve had a jolly-good time during the past one year, but well, the fact that I am still blogging today obviously shows that I have not given up blogging completely, no? I started blogging because I thought it was an interesting way to keep my friends in the loop as to what was happening to me. I thought I could send less mass emails to everybody, and that I could just get them to read my blog instead.

But as I later realized, no, I do NOT feel comfortable talking to people who talk about MY blog. I do not feel comfortable having people walk up to me and say, “Hey, how are you feeling now? I read your blog about that so-and-so incident. Hope you’re feeling better.” Because truth is, I would have forgotten about that so-and-so incident the very next day, regardless of how I was feeling at the time of writing.

And by attending my first blogger meet in Kuching this year, I learned that I am not half as into blogging as some people were. They were talking incessantly about the act of blogging, and bloggers in person, their recent blog posts and 1001 other things that have been made public via their respective blogs. They may be behaving “correctly” otherwise it wouldn’t be coined a “bloggers’ gathering”, but no, I did not feel comfortable at all. My version of a “bloggers’ gathering” is one where we could actually get to know the person behind the blog, behind the different themes. I’d love to talk about what you do, your job, your family, places you’ve gone for vacation or for work, you get the drift? Things that bloggers would normally NOT blog about in their blogs.

But then again, a lot of people have willingly blogged about their personal lives and that, of course, is really none of my business.

As such, I have slowly transformed from a person who blogs for an audience to one who blogs because she feels like it. Gone were the days when I would blog about something just to get my measly few readers to come back. Gone were the CnP posts where the sole intention was to add another post to the growing number. And I am now blogging about things that matter to me, which may or may not ring a bell in your head, and events and milestones that are important to me. And me only.

Maybe, maybe this is my only achievement so far.